Flying like a bird

From my childhood to the end of college ,very few paths look smooth.Probably because I demand too much to the situation. The first day in my school, my parent gave me 1/2 rupee to have some food at break time and warned me 5 times not to lose the penny. I had no idea how much I could buy with that single penny. So I was also a bit nervous and gave a bit more care on this. The bell rang,everybody was busy to have something from the road side shop. I was roaming around the shop and trying to figure out the tasty but affordable foods. If anything goes wrong, Boys might laugh at me so I was scaring to ask the price to them. Instead I stood on a line and listening the conversation between the vendor and boys carefully. But nobody was asking about the price.They were just paying off, taking the food and disappearing like never existed. Shop man also not complaining. How can they remember the price of all foods? I couldn't even remember whether the word 'sentence' ends with ‘ce’ or ‘se’. What would you like to buy? The shop man screamed.I started asking prices to him. After asking two or three. Again the sound. How much do you have in your pocket? He said through his red  dirty gritted teeth. Nothing in my pocket, I have 1/2 rupee in my hand, I said.He snatched it and gave me something wrapped in a paper. I felt nervous because by then everybody behind me started murmuring. I took the paper cartoon promptly and asked the shop man,how much is left?? Nothing, he said. I was not very happy with a paper carton. So standing over there and asking for an alternative without knowing anything about it. Then the time came. He again snatched the packet and gave me a penny. I was happy but suddenly thought this penny was not mine. It was a dirty one. So I asked for mine. Then he came beside me and asked me. Do you know where I work? I said no. He said I work in PWD and I bury boys like you under the streets. My legs were slipping, thinking that a dead child is there down the road. I just ran form him and never visited the shop again in my childhood.When I reached in the class, I noticed that I had lost the penny. School life’s over, College life begins but still I can't help myself from demanding much in every moment of my life. In a silent exam hall when everybody gets opportunity to whisper for 1 minute, I dream of opening a book.

In a college day it was raining heavily at the lunch break. I was standing there beside my class room.In a second I turned around hearing a sweet voice. Can you tell me the way of a canteen? The lady with yellow salower and light blue stole is still flying in my eyes like a bird. You are looking for a canteen? Come with me. She was scared and told me to just tell her the way, she will manage it. Later I realized that she was not a student, she came for collecting a form. Whatever she was, I wanted to go with her. I ordered two puff. One is chicken and one is veg for the lady. She didn't slip a single word from herself. I am always bad in continuing conversation if opposite one stays silent. So, I started telling about the canteen. It's a good canteen in our college. You will get everything what you want at this canteen. I said in a low voice, because what all I knew about the canteen is, it exists on the top floor of our College. She said nothing in response. I thought she is not felling comfortable in the canteen or may be with me. Why I am not a handsome guy? Why I can’t be like Leonardo dicaprio or like a hero who has at least one heroin always with him in the whole movie? I couldn't figure out what should I say. Should I propose her for a walk or should I ask for more details about her, the most beautiful lady I had ever seen. I just kept myself on silent and watching her how carefully she is giving bites in the puff. If we were boyfriend,girl friend, I could have bought her some more puffs and enjoy the way she is finishing it. She stood up and said something I could not hear. I asked to repeat and she said she will leave. My heart broke into thousand pieces. Oh! God Why I said her to repeat. Why? Why? Why don’t you take one more puff if you are hungry? The lady said, No, Thanks.I said, ok. I will pay for yours puff though later I found,I forgot my wallet in the hostel. 

She walked out. I shall never forget the conversation with her in my lifetime. Probably because very few words she said. I was finishing the puff. It was making my mouth dirty, so I cleaned it up and walked out.